You ever get the feeling that you were meant to do something?
And by something, I don't mean extraordinary. Because I used to think that about myself and now I don't ever get that feeling anymore.
I wish that I could just see that everything is going to be okay for me, I don't even need to know specifics, like career, marriage, and family stuff. I just want to know that I end up happy. The less I would know the more likely it would be to end up that way.
That is the best news in the entire world. Funny enough, I can feel a weight lifted off my shoulders. A heavy one. Now the only weight is learning all the different types of bras! I work at Victoria's Secret now. Better yet, I'm not just seasonal, so I can get comfortable. I really like that. I'm happy I know I can contribute to not only my debt, but the things my friends and I like to do. I can buy dinner. I can take Dylan to a movie occasionally now too. I feel like I have some ounce of worth again. How funny.
Things are good. This is one of the first times I can say in a long while that I'm not concerned about anything. I'm not having doubts. I'm not upset. I feel completely comfortable and hopeful again. Longest relationship ever, btw. That's weird. Haha. Homecoming is this upcoming weekend! That's crazy.
Psshh, Dylan, we're just friends and I plan on keeping it that way! I still have feelings for Steven. It's hard to sleep at night when he's not in my bed with me. There's been a lot of rumors going around about me. I'm not sure why, I don't even go to Arbor View anymore. Honestly, I think it's pathetic and I feel bad for those people talking about me. I mean their lives must suck pretty bad if all they have to do is sit around and talk about me behind my back. OHWELL. Uhm what else is going on in life? I went to cue d's and won 2 games, I was so excited! I still havent found a new boy to like. Danny is trying to talk to me again, but I'd rather not. Oh Yeah, I'm a redhead!
It's been awhile, again.
Summer is almost over. About a week and a half to go for Fall to enter 2009.
Fall is my favorite season, Halloween, Orange, Yellow, Red, Driving with the windows down, Sleeping with the windows open.. even the scent is different to me. I'm excited.
I start school October 6th! I'm so excited. I'll be done in February, and I can actually look for my career job! How excellent.
Brennan's best friend is engaged :O
Speaking of Brennan, he took me on a surprise Six Flags trip. It was so out of the blue. And amazing. I've never been to six flags, so it was time. It was nice to get away from the vegas heat, but i was only gone for one day, & I already missed home.
Going to Oceanside October 1-4 for Brennan's sisters graduation party. It's gonna be awesome !
My Packers won today ! GO PACKERS 2010 PLAYOFFS!
The Beatles Rock Band came out the other day. To bad i can't afford it. I want it so bad, but I'll just have to be patient.
Thats all for now.
Love&Peace to all.
1 meal a day, dinner.
1 small fruit, breakfast.
At least 3 glasses of water.
No more soda.
Welcome to diet hell.
I have ten minute before I need to leave for work. The insecurities of my friends are beginning to drive me quite mad. I wrote something while I was strung out and I keep coming back to it. I missed a call today and a class as well. I have nothing important to say really.
Maybe I should have made an introductory blog first. I was just in a tizzy and absolutely had to vent about Roseanne. Nonetheless, I should have introduced myself. My name is Katie Herbert, most of you reading this should already know that. Currently, there are a ton of old people roaming around in the living room, because my father enjoys poker games. I enjoy hot pockets. I have a stuffed animal that I sleep with every night. He is a dolphin and his name is The Fonz. The Fonz was given to me by my best friend Susie Moss. I drive a Mercedes Benz, her name is Phoebe. That's absolutely everything you need to know.
Tonight, I found out that Roseanne, the television show was a lie. I am displeased to say that Dan is actually dead, and in the end Roseanne was writing a book. Sometimes I wish to pick writers brains, not for my benefit of course. I wish to pick their brains to identify what the fuck went wrong in their logic. What a devastating ending. I am disappointed. I think I am angry with you Appi. I wish to go back in time, and steer away from that conversation we were having that lead to me knowing the ending of this television show. With an ending like that, it would be better if Roseanne never existed at all.
So apparently I am doing too many drugs according to the man who knows so much about my life. He informed me of this tragic habit that I have and then you know what he does? He smokes weed. What a fucking hypocrite. I wasn't angry before about the possibility of losing someone close to me over something ridiculously trivial I was mainly just sad, but now I am fucking livid. Who is he to comment on my life. Who in the world does he think he is? He is in no position to tell me which direction to take my life. I don't think I have ever hated him so much. You do not deserve all that I have to offer you.
my love, to the sea
