I'm trying to update all the time, 'cause a lot of things are going on. Honestly tho, there's only so much I really want to say. I have a lot of venting, so here I go.
• Appi's birthday is in a couple of days. I'm excited for it. I'm upset, because Hannah and Ian can't come to her party 'cause they get off so late. It blows, but whatever I guess. Appi's going to see if she can just talk them into letting them come when everyone's gone. My fingers are crossed.
• Christmas is around the corner. I've already started shopping. I'm gonna be so broke, but it'll be so worth it. I love buying other people things. I'm going to Cash for Chaos on Wednesday with Lys to get Hannah her ridiculously expensive belt and Ian some shirts and patches and stuff. It'll be money well spent.
• My cough won't go away. Ugh.
• I'm going to call my mom tomorrow. I'm nervous. But I know the longer I put it off, the harder it'll be for me to finally call her.
• I talked to Hannah about Ian and whatnot. She reassured me, to an extent, but I think it's just some issues that I'll have to work out on my own.
• This weekend was really fun. I'm so incredibly excited for break. Lots of bonding time :) More work, but money is nice.
That's in I guess.
:)
Well, I've been to the moon and the stars and the go inbetweens.
Now go tell your sister, stop playing with new machines.
~I've been nursing the nastiest cold for a few days now. I missed a few days of school, but I really couldn't be around anyone. I don't get sick often, but when I do, it's bad. I miss my sisters, but overall being away from home doesn't suck yet. I still need my own place, but right now I just need a car. Things at work are average, at best. I made a retard out of myself last weekend, but Appi doesn't think it matters. Hopefully she's right. I'm stuck, I hate being stuck, but I can't really do anything at this point. Sooner or later tho, I'm going to have to do something about this.
Pray for my cold to go away.
My mom kicked me out.
I'm living with Appi, temporarily, or w/e.
Maybe Hannah, later.
I can't afford a place on my own yet.
I hope I survive this. I'm going to need all the friends I have, I can't afford to lose anymore.
shit.
SAT is on Saturday. Which should be cool, considering I close on Friday, just to be up at the crack of dawn for my five hour fucking test. Way cool, that's how I love to live my life.
I'm so tired. I can barely keep my eyes open.
I miss the way things you used to be.
ugh.
/:
Things keep are progressing at an alarmingly slow rate.
I just started studying for my SAT, its on December 6th.
Not looking forward to it, but at least that means time is moving somewhat.
Things are work are okay. I'm getting really great hours and really great paychecks. My last was 400, my next should be abour 325. I'm excited. I'm saving for a car, like now.
I've been feeling really weird lately. I'm not getting the things I want, at all.
I hate that a vox isn't a vox for me anymore.
I'm considering blogspot, I'd be able to write a lot more in detail.
speaking of, I can't stop writing! I've filled up at least 7 or 8 pages in the last week, which usually takes me about a month, because I'm never motivated and I usually only write when I'm heavily ladden with emotion. But lately it's been nice :)
Anyway, I've got Sun Youth in 7 hours, and sleep is mandatory tonight.
:D
Things are so, so good.
My life is like a pie chart, and everyone has a little piece of me.
You know if you're in my pie chart :)
School is getting harder.
Work is overwhelming.
Last Saturday was fantastic. I'm a drunken fiend, and an animal apparently :)
I could complain, but I really don't want to.
Life is good, but it needs to be June already.
and goes, and I'm hoping it sticks around this time.
I love my friends,
and I love my job.
I love four hundred dorrar checks, and dreaming about the future.
I love that I can't get you out of my head,
but I'm cool. You don't know anything :)
My two bedroom apartment is around the corner.
My car is down the street.
My life is just a couple miles away :D
Best joke of the day?
A stoned double date.
BAHA.
<3
Obama won!
:) Sweeet.
Maybe I'll get a chance at affording college.
Things are good right now :)
I'm home right now, and not at work. Which is weird. First day of in almost two weeks, and I'm so restless that I'd rather be at work. Closing on school nights isn't too bad, but last night was. We ran a late close, and I didn't get home until almost 1230. Blah. I fell asleep in 2/3 classes. No bueno.
:D
I need a new book :)
It's not like I don't have anything to say.
I've got everything to say, but I won't let anything out.
Being bitter solves nothing sweetheart, and that goes for both of us.
I need to write. I swear, if I don't shit out something beautiful this weekend, I'm considering a career change.
I've said this once, I'll say it again; You will see me through several perspectives. I assure you, mine is the most accurate.
I'm going to explode. Textbooks, historical events, pizzas, blood and music is just going to come pouring out of my brain. I can't do this anymore. I wake up wishing it was still yesterday, because I hate wasting another day like this. This isn't a new feeling for me. I'm not mistaken. You have no idea what I feel.
):
1:54 AM
I'm tired of talking about me. Let's talk about you, since apparently you've taken to the idea of never speaking to me again.
Kay, thanks. As if I wasn't fucked enough already.
School is dragging on me.
College scares me. I read some bitch ass article today about student loans. Apparently people have to leave the country because they can't afford them. WHAT THE FUCK. I don't love America, but Mexico isn't that great either. Fuck.
I love Hannah.
and Appi.
and I wish I could be me again.
I wish I could say what I have to say,
but I can't put the words down right.
Things went downhill at an extraordinary speed.
