1 post tagged “companionship”
My computer's back today. I'm happy (: I was living off three CDs: Narrow Stairs, a bright eyes/dcfc mix, and summer mix I made two months ago. Seriously, music plays such an important role in my day to day, that even two weeks away from my 3,261 babies left me heartbroken! Fuck Myspace, I've got it mobile, and vox is a mere convienence compared to iTunes. Damn, I'm a whiner.
I'm unbelievable excited for the literature that is to be released this summer. I'm such a girl, I know, but at the top of this list is Breaking Dawn, the new Twilight novel. Seriously, those books have me fidgeting! Which is amazing, since I've reread them all a dozen or so times. 37 days until the new book!
It's going to be brilliant, and I know it will take me less than three hours to read, tops. I'm so happy Liv got into these (: Now I have someone to gush and be nerdy over w/ since Megan is in California. Speaking of Liv, she came over the
other night and stayed over. It was really fun. Out of all my friends, Alivia is the one I can relate to the easiest. She doesn't hold me to any expectations, and although I acknowledge that that's weak of me, I really appreciate it. I can be completely myself, all character flaws laid out.
Speaking of character flaws, I really hope to fix a few of mine this summer. I think I'm too narrow minded, which is insane if you look at a few of my friends. I think I'm probably the most open minded, but I want to be more broad with my opinons, but at the same time, be able to stand my ground. Chris gets me everytime!
Morgan is beginning to become important to me, and the fact that anyone new is important to me anymore suprises, and relieves me. There are far too many problems with having friends, that I'm usually so content with the ones I have,
and I'm rarely up for making new ones. With Morgan though, it's different. I feel strangely unreserved around her. I can be myself, really myself. Not that I put up an act any other time, but I don't have to hide anything. Yeah? No, I don't know. Whatever, I guess. I'm totally content with where I am, and what I'm doing, be it with other people, or just with myself.
Work is really good right now. It's tiring, but worth it. Not just getting paid, though. I get real sense of accomplishment knowing that everyday I go to work and earn pay/responsibility. Dino wants me to get into Chili's. He has a guy there, and I can start bussing and in three months, start waitressing. Money is really good that way, especially when you don't have any real bills to pay. I'm weary though, because I'm so content where I'm at! I have a good manager, lots of hours, and it's almost easy money. My mom says to stay where I am. I agree with her; I think it shows more loyalty to a company, or at least a job. I've only been there two months for Christ's sake!
Taeler said something to me last night, and I swear to God, she was reading my mind. She said I needed to find a companion. I shrugged it off, but being lonely isn't so fun ): I think I need to focus on myself right now though, anyway. School is coming up sooner than any of us are going to expect it, and I'm really concerned about senior year. I've got a heavy class load, plus CSN classes on the side. I'm going to be very busy, and I doubt I'll have anytime for companionship.
I need to go to this school. My current plans are to attend CSN for two years, then transfer, but it would be completely amazing if by this time next year, I was packing my bags for this place :D
Western Washington University, Bellingham Washington!!!
For seriously, when I graduate, I want to get out of this town. Don't get me wrong, I love this city. This is my home, and it always will be. But I think Vegas attracts a lot of negative things, and when I can finally be free of my childhood, I want to find a such a contrast to the things that I know. Rain, for one. It rains here twice a year. Forest(s)! Northern Nevada has nothing buy cowboy range, and I'm looking for green. I got another one of their postcards in the mail today, and this time it was a picture of the school, with their lake. STUDENTS WERE ON SAILBOATS. The people could of been regular people, but none the less, I am mezmorized. This is my current dream, goal, or whatever.
:) that's all.
